Me, A Racist
By Kazz Falcon
Say what?
How could I be one?
I had all types of friends
If I don’t like his kind,
I won’t hang out with them
He has lots of nerve to call
me a racist
It has never cross my mind
At least, I didn’t use
the word, “Nigger”
Some words were nothing but
trouble
Using a word doesn’t
make a racist
I was describing someone by
a color
I still don’t understand
I didn’t mean any harm
It was only a word
I truly felt like he insulted
me
He hardly knew me
Yet, I, somehow, became a racist
to him
What happened?
A black man was under the impression
that I was a racist
For what?
Because I used the word, black
What’s up with that?
He offended me by the accusation
I did nothing wrong
He asked, “Why did I
used that word in my poem?”
Hello, the writer put it in
the story
Therefore, I didn’t want
to change his story
She always wore black and had
long black hair
She was known as the Black
Angel
My poem was true to the writer’s
story
Like I said, it was only a
word
There was no harm done
Me, a racist
Was I Guilty Of The Murders?
By Kazz Falcon
Was I guilty of the murders?
I was a nurse at a Hungary
hospital
The patients’ pain was
too much to take
They couldn’t bare it
any longer
They were too weak to do anything
My heart goes out for them
I wished I could help them
somehow
They knew of a way to make
it happen
Lethal injection will end the
pain for them
That was a fabulous ideal
The law was the furthest thing
from my mind
I shouldn’t get in that
much trouble
They wanted my help
I can’t let them down
They were depending on me
I had a good reason at night
I might as well do the injection
on my work shift
No one will be suspicious of
the deaths
It was the act of God
It was their time to go
I was their only solution and
hope
Word got around at the hospital
The deaths was quickly within
days from one another
The staff found it very odd
that the deaths occurred the same way
There was a killer among us
“A killer,” I said,
softly
I wasn’t a killer
They gave me permission to
use the lethal injection
It was between them and me
They didn’t want anyone
else to know
It was best that way
We knew the doctors wouldn’t
allow the injection
The fingers was pointed in
my direction
I confessed that I killed them
No one was please with me
The police arrested me
I was outrage; they had no
right at all
The patients wanted to die
that way
Was I guilty of the murders?
Euthanasia Case
By Kazz Falcon
Things didn’t go as plan
in court
I was really in deep water
The jury found me guilty of
the murders
The court banned me from ever
being a nurse
I was in disbelieved
I can’t gasp of the murder
charges
I was only helping the patience
with their dying wish
Yet, no one believed the honest
truth
What have I done to deserve
prison time?
Damn, I wished I was more secretive
They wouldn’t suspect
a thing at all
I don’t feel guilty what
I did
I helped them the best way
I know how
I was against the wall
I denied that I wanted to kill
them
I wanted to ease the patients'
suffering through death.
Euthanasia was illegal in Hungary
Damn, I didn’t knew that
That was my downfall
I should have been more careful
with the murders
The patience expressed to have
their life terminated
In my case, euthanasia wasn’t
in my favor
I was branded as a cold-blooded
murderer in court
Hollyweird Freak
By Kazz Falcon
I met this wonderful person
online
We had so many things in common
We loved the beaches, the mountains,
the malls and more
We basically talked every night
online
It was a wonderful feeling
I finally found someone to my liking
We didn’t want to rush
into anything fast
Let love happen for us
He wanted to meet me at a coffee
shop
I declined; I don’t drink
coffee
He suggested a movie
I was tempted, but declined
There wasn’t any movie
I want to see at that time
I was more into classics
He suggested eating out
I would love to, but…
Forget about it
I was known as a Hollyweird
freak
I haven’t tell him my
real nature
Some people wouldn’t
“understand” me at all
All the times, he wanted to
meet
I refused every single time
I don’t want to be bother
with those people
The truth was I was protecting
myself from hurt
It is all I could do right
now
I need to get to know them
better
Then, I will know I could trust
them
If trust wasn’t there,
I want no part of them
Love may be around the corner
The hurt was too deep to trust
anyone
I can’t let it happen
ever again
Shallow people hurt me so many
times
No one could fix the pain I
had
I just can’t take any
risks
I know deep down I would get
hurt again
Father’s Last Days
By Kazz Falcon
My father was dying from cancer
He hasn’t that much to
live
I haven’t seen him in
years
My mother wanted all the kids
be there for his last days
She was expecting the worst
any day
I was the oldest
I had to be there for my siblings
They would need all the support
from me
Their eyes was in sorrow
I need to be brave for them
Some of them wouldn’t
take it
The second youngest was five
year old
He may not understand death
that well
He was the most heartbroken
of them all
Our father was his role model
He looked up to him
He doesn’t want him to
go
He needs his daddy
It just broke my heart for
him
The other kid was just a baby
She wouldn’t know her
daddy
She has no memories at all
She will grow up without a
daddy
Well, I decided something
It will make my sibs very happy
Since they need a role model,
I could be it for them
Our father was the best dad
we ever had
He was a good role model too
I would give up my job in Hollywood
and move back home
There was no ands, buts or
ifs about it
My family really needs me
They need structure in their
young lifes
Our daddy was leaving soon
Daddy’s Death
By Kazz Falcon
My daddy recently died from
cancer
We were on the way to his funeral
I just don’t understand
at all
My daddy was supposed to be
there for us
Yet, he remained cold and silence
I wished he could talk to me
again
Or play ball with me
I missed his love and hugs
Why couldn’t he be there
for the baby and me?
The baby needs him more than
I do
I was only five year old
My oldest brother was blessed
to have a dad all his life
He just gave up his job for
us
He wouldn’t go back to
Hollywood
He would pick up where daddy
left off
I wasn’t happy at all
A huge piece from my heart
left a void
Everyone was hurting
Our father was my life
I don’t care for the
Hollywood stars
He was the perfect role model
for me
Things was never be the same
without daddy
He made us laugh, cried, obedient,
love and others
He told us wonderful stories
about his life
I will always remember him
My baby sister would remember
him too
I will pass his stories on
to her
I will tell her everything
our loving daddy
My mother and brother helped
me to cope with daddy’s death
Terrible Secret
By Kazz Falcon
I had a wonderful boyfriend
I was truly in love with him
I couldn’t stop thinking
about him day and night
He was the most caring, loving
person I ever love
Our love was just perfect as
God’s love
He was the only man for me
We were committed to each other
We basically saw each other
about every day
We didn’t have time for
anyone else
We wanted to spend every waking
moment
We had a blast everywhere we
go
We didn’t want the love
to end
It hurts to tell you
Our love didn’t last
at all
He withheld something important
from me
I couldn’t believe it
at all, not for a second
I was beyond shock
It destroyed my feelings for
him
He kept a secret from me
All this time, I didn’t
know he was HIV positive
My God! We had unsafe sex
He didn’t like the feel
of the condoms
Damn, I should have listen
to my gut feelings
I got so freaking angry
Why didn’t he tell me
about his HIV status?
He has some nerves
He claimed he loved me with
all his heart
How could he do that to me?
Keeping secrets wasn’t
love
It was lies, lies and more
lies
Wait till I see him
I will give him a piece of
my mind
He would regret the day we
met at the club
Damn, we should have been more
careful for sex
If I became HIV positive, I
would kill him
I wished I didn’t find
his HIV medication by accidentally
Our love was perfect
He destroyed my life from that
terrible secret
HIV Plead
By Kazz Falcon
I got home from work
My lover wasn’t pleased
with me about something
I had never saw him that angry
before
We had small fights
Then we kissed and made up
This time, it was quite different
I saw the fire in his eyes
He didn’t hold back at
all
He claimed I couldn’t
be trusted
I put his life on the line
Dear lord, I had a feeling
he knows
I was being so careful with
the secret
He accidentally saw my meds
in the closet
He was looking for something
nice to wear tonight
We supposed to celebrate our
six-month anniversary
I wished he didn’t have
my apartment key
I should have known better
I thought he wouldn’t
ever find out
I wasn’t being careless
I was in the perfect health
I tried to calm him down
I wanted to hold him
He pushed me away
I didn’t mean any harm
at all
He slapped me around the face
I pleaded with him to understand
I just wanted to be love
No one ever wants a HIV lover
I meant well
He got to believe that
Yes, what I did was wrong
I should have tell him in the
beginning
I couldn’t bare the thought
of losing love again
I didn’t want to lose
him at all
He was my man, my man to love
I can’t live without
his love
He means the world to me
I wanted to be love
What was wrong of loving someone?
He threw the dirty little secret
in my face
I put his life at risk, a death
sentence
How come I do such a nasty
thing?
He claimed I should be arrest
for attempted murder
He can’t call the police,
he just can’t
Love conquers all
We would get through this together
I promised there weren’t
any more secrets
Everything was out in the open
I felt guilty for keeping it
from him
Come on, dear, you can get
over it
He slapped me again
He made a good point, how could
he?
He doesn’t know he have
the HIV virus.
It would be weeks to know
I wished I could take the HIV
back from him
He doesn’t deserve the
disease
He mentioned that I deserved
it and even AIDS
Please, I was begging him
Take me back
Take me back
I got on my knees, pleading
with him
My tears speak volumes
I need him in my life to love
He wouldn’t heard of
it
He gave me the key back and
stormed out of my apartment
I lost him forever
God, What have I done?
I only wanted to be love
Is that a crime?
I didn’t want to be alone
I only wanted to be love by
someone special
HIV Window
By Kazz Falcon
My boyfriend and I had a fabulous
relationship
Our love was so passionate,
loving and caring
Nothing could ever tear our
love apart
We was on top of the world
One night, I wasn’t feeling
well
I was feverish
I threw up couple of times
I thought it was something
I ate
I slept it off till the morning
Damn, I was still sick to my
stomach
I paid a visit to my doctor
He checked me out
He was curious about something
I wondered what
He asked, “If I ever
had an HIV test?”
God, I took it once before
There wasn’t a need for
a new one
I hardly fool around, let alone
do drugs
Couple weeks later, the doctor
gave me the news
I was HIV positive
How could it be?
I know my lover didn’t
have it
We didn’t do drugs or
slept around
To be on the safe side, the
doctor checked him out too
He turned out to be HIV negative
We was both shocked
What happened?
How could I got it and he doesn’t?
The doctor explained I had
it for a while
I was in the window; it didn’t
show up at all
This time, HIV appeared on
the test
My lover and I need to learn
to live with it
Of course, we need to practice
safe sex
My boyfriend wanted me double
up on the condoms
He doesn’t want the virus
And I didn’t want to
give it to him either
Our safety comes first
Frightening Scared
By Kazz Falcon
Dear lord!
I hoped my boyfriend don’t
get it
We were being so careful
One thing led to the next
We couldn’t help ourselves
He was pist off at me
He ran straight to the shower
to clean his ass quickly
Damn, why him?
God, don’t let him get
the virus
Please, God
We was in passionate mood
There weren’t enough
condoms
We just took a risk with one
condom
We were hot and heavy
The condom broke inside of
him
He felt it coming inside
He screamed, “Get it
out! Get it out!”
He was truly frightened of
me for the first time
He blamed me for pushing him
into sex
Hello, he wanted it as much
I want it
We hadn’t sex since our
HIV tests
We waited for a while till
we had sex
We wanted information about
safe sex
I couldn’t believed it
He thought that I purposely
gave it to him
God, what was he thinking?
I would never ever do such
a thing
I loved him very much
I cared a lot for his safety
He need to realized that things
happened
We could have went to the store
for more condoms
We wanted to stay in the passionate
mood
Therefore, we took a chance
with one condom
I got him to calm down
He felt sorry for the nasty
thing he said to me
Of course, I forgave him
I hold him in his arms
We fell asleep in bed
Hurt By Love
By Kazz Falcon
I didn’t expect it at
all
He didn’t feel any resentful
toward me
He was his own lovable self
I thought we became closer,
thanks to my HIV status
He didn’t distance himself
at all
He went to visit his sick mother
in Dallas
I figured he would be back
within a week
I was counting the days he
would come home
A week was up; he hasn’t
come home yet
Nor, he called me either
He may have missed his plane
I waited by the phone
Nothing so far
I realized his mom wanted him
to stay for couple more days
I went on with my life
A thought came to my mind
He wouldn’t pick up his
paycheck
He was still out of town
So, I decided to pick it up
for him
His boss already knew me
I went to his work
The boss mentioned he was at
work every day
He wanted to work the late
shift
I found that odd
What happened to his sick mother?
I called his mother
She explained everything was
fine
She was healthy as a horse
She hasn’t heard from
him over a month
God, it told me one thing
He wanted no part of me anymore
My heart broke in a million
of pieces
How come he doesn’t want
me?
We was perfect for each other
It must be the reason he left
I was HIV positive and he wasn’t
I couldn’t stop crying
Love wasn’t supposed
to be that way
He can’t leave me
We belonged together no matter
what
I can’t face the disease
alone
I need my boyfriend beside
me
He was my strength
I can’t go at it alone
God, please let him to come
home
I missed him
I still loved him
He just can’t stop loving
me
He just can’t
What am I going to do?
He wasn’t that afraid
as much I was
I was living with the virus
Damn, I hate him now
He abandoned me
Why, God, why?
He can’t abandoned me
I did nothing wrong at all
I didn’t plan of getting
the deadly disease
It just happen
There wasn’t a thing
I could do about it
I had to live with it for the
rest of my life
Where were my support and my
love?
He went out of the door and
never returned
God, I hate him for leaving
me
Do you know what was worst?
He didn’t have the courage
to leave a Dear John Letter
Damn, I was so alone and hurt
by love
So Long, Love
By Kazz Falcon
So long, love
I will miss you in my heart
You was everything to me
But something drastic changed
our relationship
I couldn’t love you the
same way anymore
From deep down, I wished I
could
Our love wasn’t good
enough for us
I can’t deal with your
HIV status
It was hard for me
I already lost many friends
to AIDS
I couldn’t bared of going
through it again
I can’t handle it anymore
I know I hurt you deeply
I hope someday you would forgive
me
You deserved someone much better
than me
I can’t be your strength
I don’t have the strength
for the both of us
The moment we found out, it
crushed my spirit
I thought we would have a lifetime
of love
That love disappeared into
thin air
I wanted so much to be there
for you
You was my angel
Heavens awaits you with open
arms
For me, it would probably be
hell for me
I gave up on us
You will find strength within
you
You will fight the disease
with all your being
God will give you a fighting
chance
God will send you a long lasting
boyfriend
You deserved much more than
life has to offer you
Whatever you do, don’t
give up on yourself
I wasn’t worth of your
love
I gave up on you
I was scared for my life
I was foolish enough to have
sex with one condom
For that, I wasn’t good
enough for you
So long, love
Relationship
By Kazz Falcon
We shared our lifes in a relationship
I cared to be love by him in
the most ultimate way
We was lost in love, only if
it’s for real
We sealed it with a kiss
We hit a homerun
We don’t sit there and
do nothing
Something bounded to happen
for us
I found my way to the bedroom
Heartbeats sounded for true
love
I dove into bed in the heat
of passion
I was defeated by love
I felt it in my heart
It melts me in his loving arms
We was unity to receive each
other’s love
I was never alone in bed
We really want comfort in one
bed
We will remain in love forever
That was the best way to go,
among other things
I craved to love him with my
heart
I hugged him with my arms
I kissed him on my lips
I hold him with my hand
I saw the beauty in him
I touched him with my fingers
I felt his life in the most
highest
I can’t get enough of
him
I want a long lasting relationship
Not just for sex
I want friendship, comfort,
warmth and love
Nothing can tear us apart
He was the one and only man
for me
Snakes
By Kazz Falcon
Snakes was man’s worst
enemy
They slithered in our lifes
The world was a living hell
We fell to the ground crying
The bell started to ring
They sung, “Destroy all
comers!”
We drove out of The Garden
Of Eden
We lived to get even with them
Let the snakes come near us
We will tear them apart
We vowed revenge
We took them to Doom Day
All snakes was dead meat
We brought a gigantic club
with us
We sought out the revenge
They ought not to escape from
us
We haunted them to the four
corners
Nothing can sour our fun
The sun burned them to a crisp
Our lifes turned back to normal
as normal it could be
The snake will be another life
form or some sort of trouble
Till the next time, we will
win for once and for all
